George Self-Portrait

Self-Portrait

It ought to be immediately obvious that I am a shameless old woman.  Otherwise, I should hide behind the hairless cat Gravitar.  I have to admit that I did a pass or two (maybe a few more, actually) with the “smoothing” tool.  The thing was just too hideous to post without a little digital “powder”.  My teeth are not quite so white and my skin not so smooth by a long shot, but you must allow me those small vanities.  Trust me on that one.  I have a photo only because one was required, I thought, when I began this cloud surfing venture.   One day, I walked into the bath and photographed myself, composing by guesswork, in the the full-length mirror.   This is it…and, by the grace of God, the last it.

But.  There is a story here too.  Since I am a virtual hermit, I can create my own image without the benefit of the knife.  A couple of years ago, I visited my long-time ENT specialist/plastic surgeon for an evaluation of my failing hearing.  We got to discussing plastic surgery since he’d always had a “before” and “after” diagram of an old woman posted on the wall directly in front of the patient’s chair.  I began by asking him what he thought was wrong with the old woman as she was before the projected transformation into a younger self.  He looked me directly in the eyes with his almost-too-blue eyes and replied candidly that he never thought she needed surgery either.  On that, we were in agreement.  We went on to talk about the aging process, the youth culture, and how we want to project ourselves as something we are not.  Then the fun part.  I bet him that my eyelids were longer than his.  We each stretched our eyelids as far out as we could.  He agreed that I was, hands down, the winner.

He has since retired, taken the required immunizations, and run off to help as many of  the people of Japan as he can before he dies.  His aim is to repair the physical scars and deformities brought on by the devastating effects of the tsunami and radiation spills.   I thought he would spend his retirement fishing.  I don’t mind that he has left me an Anglo with uncharacteristic Asian eyes…a frivolity in the face of the task and the fate into which he has plunged himself with such courage and grace.  Godspeed, old man!   I’ll keep the eyelids.

17 Comments on “George Self-Portrait

  1. Well, I looked for a while and found a real self-portrait… and appreciate it. We share some attitudes and opinions, I see. I don’t think I got the joke, though. Even so, I wouldn’t trouble you to spell it out for me. But I do like to see the faces of the people I read or meet… even if it’s on the internet. Thank you.

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    • Thank you, Nia. You are always so sweet and supportive of everybody. Alex and you and Victor and Michael and everybody else have been so encouraging with your kind comments. Everyone has ignored the mistakes and the often “fuzzy” photographs. They say you can’t teach an old dog new tricks. I suppose you can’t, but you can applaud his stumbling efforts to learn. The generosity that all of you have shown to me confirms my faith in young people. Bless all of you.

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    • Alex, the bottom reply was meant for you. Lordy, I’m liable to post anything anywhere, huh? At any rate, here it is again…this time in the right order!

      I never saw anybody post his own photograph…especially in “life-size” proportions. I’m laughing still about it. I hope others get the joke. I like that you have your picture as your Gravitar. It’s a bit strange that I thought of doing this and of changing my own Gravitar because I saw you and a very few others use their photos. I’m curious. I want to know who I’m talking to. You and I very well be the only two people who think this is acceptable. Thank you for always dropping by to see my posts. I appreciate that!

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    • Hello, fellow Crone! Your Gravitar is wonderful. I’m smiling that Anonymous came calling. We share what I call TBMS. (The Busy Mind Syndrome) I prefer to take my encroaching senility fancied up in small doses. 😉

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  2. The self-portrait is beautiful. Thanks for sharing yourself and the story. Aging can be beautiful if we accept it. l should change my Gravitar also!

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  3. That really reminded me of Hemingway in your contrasts with what is in front of us and the story underneath actually confirming the truth. That gave me a chill and I do not get chills

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  4. It’s a good picture, processing and all. Taking your own shot has become a fill in for me when no one else in the family will stand for me. So tripod, flash, camera, and remote. I get instant feedback on lighting. And, in the process I have taught my face, which muscles make the best smile. Lately, I have tethered the camera to my laptop for more hilarity. When my dog was still alive, she was my alternate subject. She could/would close her eyes before almost every flash image. But she was family, too, and they never quite cooperate, do they? So, good for you!

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  5. You are a beautiful woman….and I hate that you do not include pictures of you anywhere…..would love to see you and Rita or you and Charlie. And as far as the eyelids, as long as your vision is not effected, they are beautiful….I love the oriental eye, and never could understand why they try so hard to not look Asian.

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    • Sue, I really don’t think it’s kosher to feature photos of yourself on a blog. If I thought I were remotely attractive, I would never have posted this. I think I may be the only person who gets the joke. This photo looks far better than I do, believe me. After I posted, I remembered that Ray was the one who enhanced it. Personal photographs aren’t interesting to most people, of course. I just like to see the people behind the posts. Guess I’m just a curious old bird. I like FACES on everything! 😉

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  6. I never saw anybody post his own photograph…especially in “life-size” proportions. I’m laughing still about it. I hope others get the joke. I like that you have your picture as your Gravitar. It’s a bit strange that I thought of doing this and of changing my own Gravitar because I saw you and a very few others use their photos. I’m curious. I want to know who I’m talking to. You and I very well be the only two people who think this is acceptable. Thank you for always dropping by to see my posts. I appreciate that!

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